Chapter One: Walking

"It wasn't what I expected." I said the words aloud, but part of me wondered if he would know even if the words where merely thoughts in my mind. We were walking along a pristine tropical beach, the sun was shining causing the white sand to sparkle as if it held within it a thousand gems. The sound of the crystal blue waves breaking upon the shore had a strange calming effect and although my feet where bare the soft sand was warm to the touch, not the burning hot that it should have been.
It was odd and yet familiar, the two of us walking, like old friends catching up after a long absence. I was unsure how long we had been walking, it seemed like a long time, perhaps forever and yet I was not tired, nor felt any need for rest.
"Where are we going?" I was surprised that I had not asked this question before, it seemed so simple walking with him. I didn't know him, at least I didn't believe I knew him and yet it seemed he knew me so well. I felt at ease with him. He wasn't that much older than me perhaps in his early to mid thirties and yet the lines on his face and the glow in his blue eyes spoke of a wisdom and experience of a much older man.
"We are going back to the beginning" his response was warm and heartfelt and although I did not know what he meant I was content with his response. It was at this moment that I realized we where no longer at the beach but in the depths of a deep forest. The great pine trees towering above us, the sound of a trickling brook and a song birds call having the same affect that the waves upon the beach had. The wind blew through the trees and it seemed as if it was telling a story of far away places to the stationary giants.
"You said it wasn't what you had expected?" I turned from the ever changing scenery and looked at the man who walked beside me. I was unsure if he was my guide or just another lost soul like me but either way the look in his eyes let me know that he really wanted to hear my story. "no, not like I expected. Nothing has been. Not this place and not how it happened." as I said the words glimpses and rushes of memories came to me reminding me of what had transpired, it seemed so long ago.
"It wasn't what I expected, it's not the way I thought I would die."


(I wrote this a few weeks ago, it is a new book that I am going to write although I am not sure where this story is going to lead me.)

Lasik

had Lasik eye surgery this morning and Mom came and was able to watch through some monitors. I gave her my cell phone and she was able to take some pictures of the procedure. So here we go:

Ok so in the first picture you see the monitors that Mom got to watch on. the first shows the close up of my eye and the bottom of the room. Yes I am holding a Teddy Bear, they give you this to hold on to because you want to touch your eye while the procedure is happening and this of course is something you cannot do. So I had to think of the Teddy bear as a sort of Grenade, if I let go we all die.

The second picture with the metal looking thing is the suction they put on to cut the flap, this is the only time during the procedure that your sight goes dark and you cant see. The nest two pictures are with the flap off and that is why the eye has a dull look to it. If you look you can see the flap it is on the right side of the eye. the second one he is starting to put the flap back on with the little tool. this metal looking tool administers drops and tests pressure. the last picture is the flap back in place. You are awake the whole time and you see everything except for when they use the suction. Right after the surgery I was able to see better.

Earrings

So I am not a huge fan of necklaces and bracelets and I only where one ring but I love Earrings. I really like to have unique earrings that represent me (and my eclectic nature) So the other day as Mom and I where talking we had the idea of making our own jewelry. So yesterday we went shopping and one of our stops was at Michael's, I saw some beads and feathers that I liked and thought why not. So here is what I made today. (In a store these would most likely run between $8.50 and $15.50) I made them for much less!

Snow Again!

Ok so you need to understand that as of two days ago there was no snow. All the snow that we had gotten had melted (we had green grass!) but yesterday I woke up to the 6" on the ground, well this morning I woke up to it snowing hard! and as it is a Saturday the plows where not out so the roads driving to work were terrible. Here are a few pictures to illustrate (albeit it was not the worst snow storm we have had but after a spring January it is a little disconcerting to have another winter.)

all the snow here is new, we had no snow two days ago,
even the snow pile here on the left did not exist.

My Tribute

So my tribute to Valentine's day is the new pink aspect on my blog. I go to many of my friends pages and friends of friends pages and there are all these hearts and lovey aspects. I have never been one to care for Valentine's day (a day named for two martyrs) but I do have a great many people in my life for whom this day is a great day (some include birthdays) so for them I added some pink in honor of this holiday of love. I know I added black but come on people you cant expect me to be all hugs and puppies. ;o)

SNOW!!

Alright so I know it is bad but I had kind of gotten used to not having any snow. the last big snow storm was on Christmas weekend and then after that everything melted and we have had clear roads. Well this morning I wake up and go out to start my car (no I do not have the auto car start, although I wish I did) and low and behold there is about 6" of dense snow all over. The roads coming into work where not the greatest and people were going very slow (admittedly I did pass many of them). In the end I got to work only 10 minutes later than I usually do, which is not bad considering. Still of late I have been wishing to live in warmer climates (ask my family and they will tell you exactly where I have and how I have been wishing to live and snow would not be part of it.)

Angst!

There are days when life seems disastrous. Today is one of those days! I know that it has been a while since I last updated my blog and I find it ironic that the day I do update happens to be a day like today. It just seems like everything is going wrong and that I cannot do anything right. I realize that this is probably far from the truth (I have people telling me this) but no matter what is said it seems that the sky is an endless stormy grey and there does not seem to be any ray of light or blue sky ahead. Of course there are those days that just seem amazing and I am sure that I could always have more of those if I would just change my approach, but alas today my approach is not as sunny as it should be.
It would probably help if I liked people more but in all truth, I don’t. It is not that I don’t get along with people and like some people, I am just an introvert and I prefer small groups to large amounts of people. I also really enjoy time to myself, so after a day of dealing with people I just want to be alone. And when I am having a terrible day like to day all I want is to be alone with a good book to read or some writing implements as I love to write. This is probably why I am writing now, trying to release some of this angst that this day is handing me.